This morning, I had another senior moment. Or perhaps it was just a Jaki Jean moment.
My eldest son possesses an obsessive, dedicated approach to a problem when he faces it. It drives those of us who love him a bit crazy. He is so focused that he does not stop until he has conquered. But, over the years, we have come to just let him be & become the conqueror.
My approach is both different & similar. Like my Alpha Son, I cannot let go of something until I work it out. Especially a mystery. I obsess over it
The difference is that I concentrate so deeply that I lose focus & find myself walking into a room, intending to do one thing & find that once in the room, I am doing something entirely unrelated to my original intention.
My sister says I have Adult Attention Deficit Disorder. If that is true, I believe I have had it long before the decades of adulthood behind me.
This morning, I went to take my morning medication: two blood pressure meds, Metanx to repair the damage inflicted by my diabetic peripheral neuropathy, a ferrous gluconate tablet, a probiotic, 200 mg of CoQ-10 & a muti-vitamin.
My sister picked up a refill for one of my blood pressure meds yesterday.
This morning, I could not find that bottle.
I found the bag it was in when I went through the trash. I found the pharmacist’s instructions about the medication & the receipt. (My sister now has three gas rewards).
Because I could envision walking into a room with the bottle of Ibersartan, concentrating on something else & putting it in a bizarre place, I checked the fridge & freezer & pantry, every cabinet, the bathroom, the floor, the dining room, every drawer.
Finally, I sent an email to my sister, asking if she remembered where I opened the bag. She said I opened it in the dining room & then asked if I checked the mantle.
We don’t have a mantle in the dining room.
We do have a mantle over the fire place in the den – but it was void of any medicine bottles. Just two photos of my sons, four candles courtesy of my mother’s church & our next-door neighbor (all of which require three AAA batteries – thank the Lord for the Dollar Tree), a rolling pin from grandmother Sims & an ice cream scoop from my grandmother Ettinger.
As my obsessive search continued, distracting me from everything I needed to do, I knew it was not good for my blood pressure.
Adding to the stress of the missing or mislaid bottle is the fact that my doctor has a strict policy about replacing “lost” medication. Of course, all the signs on the walls on his office & examining rooms have to do with controlled substances, not blood pressure meds. But I still obsessed.
Even after enlisting my brother’s help, I did not find the meds.
Finally, after my mother Jean’s breakfast, I went through my pink medicine bin convinced that there were only three bottles from our pharmacy. There should have been four.
But I was desperate. Wondering if I should take my blood pressure.
Finally, in my desperation, I went through my pink medicine bin yet again.
Still three bottles from the pharmacy.
In desperation, I picked up every bottle that did not have the same “Hold Tab Down Turn” label on the lid in green.
Then I picked up every bottle resembling my over the counter supplements.
And there it was. The Irbesartan, with a different lid & bottle shape & color.
That was my senior moment this morning. Realizing I was looking for the familiar but needing to find something new & different.
One of the best things about this morning’s senior moment & my obsessive search for the missing bottle was that I ignored most of the drama & travesty coming out of the White House.
The very best thing is that I remembered to reach beyond the familiar & known & look for new & different moments.